Multiple Choices

Is it in the lack of imagination,
rootless desperation
or simple suffocation
that my sadness resides?

The loneliness travels through the air
and an imaginary memory goes a thousand miles.

The distance between my heart and yours is infinite
But i refuse to believe I lost control.

It's in the patterns honey,
It's in the circles we trace
It's in the million faces you take
It's in my conviction that what I need is you.

Fair is to say that alter egos don't exist,
this is only between you and I,
and the million characters I take to represent you
and the smile on your face when you think I talk about you
and the different triggers that rush through my body
when I realize I might never have you.


It is the eternal search for
love
lust
provocations
desire
desperation

and the refusal to settle for anything less.

Of moons and monsters in the City

I never understood certaing decisions I've made and their outcome.
I barely question them anymore, but try to live with my present.

I am now uncertain of my lack of regret
and I wonder if we work in patterns.

You were not at my doorsteps tonight,
and I know half of our romance is in the imagination of someone else.

But I wonder, boy do I wonder!
What is it in Me that makes You,
and gives you a place that you do not wish to have.

No, this is not about you.
It's about me.

Heart Break

As you may know by now,
I am a vault digger, dream chaser, memory surfer.

And a calculated blow to the head might erase you
but I miss my place

Today I need to be read
So i call out for you to tell you
that I'm scared.

"And I'm sure you know me well,
as Im sure you dont...
But you just can't tell
who you'll love and who you wont"

This is your time to pretend...

We could be heroes

I wake up and the world is bright
You are not in my window any longer
but then again
I ask the question that doesn't matter anyway

I won! I won! Just another carousel ride
Nothing is simpler, or clearer,
we just spin longer.

She opened my eyes
or maybe just opened a dream
"It's not the fact, but the possibility"- I say

Now we start over.

We are so far away

There is no time to dwell
But the world is catching up on me
and I am so weary

He whistled all night long
and made me smile for a while
but I need you closer
and I sleep in an empty room

And I try so hard to find something else,
to keep my mind busy with he things I know
but nostalgia is hard to get rid of.

This is nothing like I thought it would be,
because we should be proud of what we've become,
and I miss the idea of you.

I dont want to crash

Take it or leave it

You make me remember those times
You make go where I though I couldn't be anymore

You drag me to the the place I don't exist
and blame me for the choice I never made

Take me now, or whatever is left of me
For tomorrow I will mutate into a caterpillar.

Someday the time will be mine to exists again
in the meantime, there is nothing else left.

"Its not that we are scared, it's just that it's delicate"

Left behind

We run in circles
we miss each other every time
we give up

We run towards the light
the paradise that we have lost
and once we get outside,
the light shines behind us

I keep trying to be something im not
But what if that's my true nature?
Selfish, selfish selfish.
I'm not only human, I devour.

And nothing satisfies me anymore
No one can tell me where to go
I am lost, and no one can reach me
nothing can touch me


I just want to be this girl that I used to be...