The storm

You came knocking on my door,
and you waited for so long.
You sheltered me, and promised me the sky
the moon and the stars.

You held my hand every time I was scared
and told me there was nothing to be scared of.

You looked into my eyes,
and I saw myself.

You told me we knew this was meant to happen
and I felt so safe with you.

You asked for everything
and everything I had I gave it to you.
My love, my home, my time, my body.

And suddenly you said you didn't want these things anymore...

You said you had to figure out some stuff,
you had to go away.
And you left me alone in the rain...

You left me with all my feelings for you
you left me in the midst of a crucial moment in my life
you left me with all these love that became hate

You left me empty,
fractured,
disappointed,
betrayed.

And i see through you now.
I cant find the person I loved
I cant find the love in your eyes
just fear and cruelty.

I know one day it will go away.
You will disappear from my life and I will be happy.

But I will never ever forgive you for letting me go.
Because as much as I hate you, I know that you know,
and you know that I know that it was one of the best things
that could have happened to us.

You blame timing,
I blame you.
And its too soon to see that all your cruelty is part of you as well.
Because I still love you
and I still want you
but I must walk away.

I wish you didn't have my heart,
I wish you were out of my mind,
I wish you wouldn't have taken April with you.